在該沒有英雄的地方
黛蒙德‧雷諾茲是位英雄(註)
她盡力保持冷靜跟女兒
坐在後座而菲蘭多慢慢變成
身旁的記憶 ，他身體仍抵著槍
窗外的警察怕這個已變成神話的人
警察覺得他是喪屍
他已經把自己想成鬼
在這個處理我們像處理汙水一樣的世界
黛蒙德該像鑽石一樣強韌
鑽石無堅不摧但為什麼他們
要那樣考驗她?為什麼他們
要用子彈射穿我們的身體
像要知道我們到底是不是
一場噩夢?為什麼他們要把我們
嚇成怪獸?為什麼他們安慰警察
不安慰家屬?為什麼官員離開了?
為什麼量脈搏前他們先看了記錄?
為什麼叫救護車前他們先捏造了故事?
比起殺戮 他們更怕被逮到
為什麼他們只保護自己 服務自己 而不是我們
為什麼他們要我們道歉
只因為擋到子彈的路
警察有什麼好的?
對黑人來說 美國夢又是什麼?
不過是沒有我們的美國做的一場夢
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註:黛蒙德‧雷諾茲的故事詳如聯結
http://nyti.ms/2cNV4KB
譯後註:此為原詩第三部分 文長故採回文方式
iii
Diamond Reynolds is a hero
where no one should have to be a hero
steady as she can be with daughter
in the back seat and Philando
slowly becoming a memory
right next to her, gun still pointed
at his body, cop outside the window
scared of a man he already
turned into a myth. thinks him
zombie when he already
imagined him ghost.
Diamond be diamond strong
in a world treat our people
like bad water. Diamond
unbreakable but why they
test her like that? why they
send bullets through our
bodies like they trying
to see if we real or just
a bad dream? why they
nightmare us into beast?
why they comfort the cops
and not the families?
why administrative leave?
why they look up the record
before they check the pulse?
why they try to spin the story
before they call the ambulance?
why they more worried about
getting caught then they worried
about the killing? why they
protect and serve themselves
from us? why they want us to
apologize for being
in the way of they bullets?
what good is police?
what is the American dream
to a brown person
except a dream of America
leaving us alone?
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