Don't allow anyone to control you through guilt, Moonchild.
You are very susceptible to that kind of manipulation,
and you are also someone who yearns to be well-liked.
That combination often causes you to take on more than
you should, or to give to people who never give back to you.
If someone is trying to pressure you into doing something
that you don't want to do,
that is your big red flag waving wildly in the breeze.
There could be a hidden agenda, and that's definitely not
something you want to deal with now. Back off from any phony
affiliations.