1 cont’d: I have a very complicated relationship with my parents. They gave me financial stability, they rush to me when I have manic episodes; yet they told me that no one else is going to be reliable as they are, friends are useless, and my mom nearly drove me to the brink of the land of the unalive several times with her cruel words and hysteria. I’m grateful and resentful to them at the same time. I feel guilty for going VLC(very low contact) with them as well. How do I work through these feelings?
3. My parents, are seen by the meritocratic society as the winners, if I wanted to copy them I could, but I chose not to. Even though I chose a different path because I don’t want to compare with them, I still know in my hearts I’m a loser in comparison, which is completely illogical. I knew to break free but at the same time I’m still not free. How do I resolve this conflict and achieve self confidence?
※ 引述《isaki1987 (N/A)》之銘言：
: 1. My mom triggers me very badly. I want to have a civil conversation with my
: parents that goes into stuff but it’s not possible without everything I revea
: l becoming her ammunition. I want to be at a stage where I have conversations
: with her and I don’t feel angry or distressed for the rest of the day and pos
: sibly the next day.
: 2. My depression is so debilitating that I take 3-5 mental health days off eve
: ry month. I know it‘s probably biological but I want to know if that can chan
: ge, and if I can’t change it I would like to make peace with this fact and no
: t feel guilty, but be shameless about my condition.
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