我試著在想當初他那個令我不忍直視的問題
what do you want?
我希望一段關係對彼此是特殊的 有意義的
然後呢
當這個目的已經達成
再見面聯絡維繫關係又是為了什麼
what am I looking for in this relationship with you?
I don't know
so I don't know what to do with you.
I always feel this is temporary, a moment
we're just going to have a moment,
maybe a moment afterwards, and another
but they are only going to be moments after moments.
it never feels real.
never feels like I really matter, or you, or what we have.
I need to detached myself, to be able to get closer to you.
I know we're not meant to be.
but if I'm not looking for someone who's meant to be.
then what am I after?
what is everyone after?
what are the differences between me and other people?