I don't think you cannot split your mind.
You did not clarify the situation.
Think about one situation, if the roles turn out to the flip side.
Maybe you're the one who watch to yt until dream.
Maybe you're finding out another one and jump in the this situation again.
The only difference is your freedom. You don't have it totally.
Just a few weeks ago it's fine, but not anymore.
What I want to say is that you got to face it no matter now or the flip side.
Expand your mind to contain everything and everyone, that's what you need.