I find out that
If I’m trying to stop something
Then I will be affected.
because I’m taking the situation
if I don’t care that at all
If I don’t Afraid about that
It well can not hit me
It is well can’t affect me
that’s why I broke my TR9
and I can stand well during Q and a.
I am a Afraid of someone love me
I still can not handle with that
I am still afraid about that I would Be a troublemaker.
I’m afraid I’ll let someone love me
I will put him down
and he will turn to be a poor guy
and I feel sad About
that I can’t promise anything to him
I am Afraid about something happening again
I do really not want That’s happened Anymore